Down Time

It's truly crazy how close to someone a person could possibly get. Seems like when I am not around Anthony, my life becomes a little slower. For the most part I have a lot of time to myself, a lot of time to think and do some soul searching and honestly, that is not always a good thing. Some say that it's really stupid to be so wrapped up into one person but why? Why is that so dumb to the public eye when you can look into a person's eye and truly see that there in love. That, that is the person that he/she is willing to compete their life too and don't want to be without. I know certain people don't understand it, meaning older adults in general but it's not for everyone else to try and figure out. I am young, this is true. Seventeen going on eighteen has not been a long ways in life but I am not stupid. I have been giving the tools in life and the foundation to a good future and I use that to the up most and higher power. People should start putting their faith into others without judging them first and maybe they will see all the good and sunlight in them. As I sit here and try to figure out what to do to fill up this empty space in my day, I realize that life is good for the most part. Even when it gets rough and times are hard, I know that the good can out weight the bad by hundreds. I also know what I have to do to make myself and my future family live a better lifestyle. Some say that you shouldn't want to grow up so fast but I look at it like I want to begin working and becoming closer to my dreams and goals. Is that so wrong of me? With all this down time, it has given me a lot of time to think and look at the beautiful opportunities that I have in front of me. I know what I have to do to make my life better and with Anthony along the way by my side, being the great big supporter that he has always been for me, I know I can do anything,

Strength . Power . Love

Power: You are the start button to my mind. You can turn it on and off when you choose too. You are the power within myself that gets me moving and upbeat. Life seems uneasy at times. When I need that extra push to knock me into the right direction, your power sets me straight.

Strength: Sometimes I'm unable to find it within myself to get up in the morning but you are my strength. The force of your love allows me to open my eyes and do the things that get me through the day. Your words are like push ups and with every one that I complete, it makes me that much more stronger.

Love: Everyone needs a little love. You are my heartbeat. The movement in my chest that keeps me alive. You are what controls my oxygen and my brain function. You love is like my blood which flows through my body so beautifully. Your love is my drug and I'm an addict.

True Or False ; Rumor Or Not.

So I heard that Beyonce` is pregnant and to be completely honest, I hope it's true. It is time for this woman to slow her ass down. Don't get me wrong. Beyonce` is still amazing and has done a lot for the music industry but it's time for her to settle down a little bit in her age. She should definitely be starting a family with her husband because no woman wants to be 60 when he child is turning 18. That's just wrong. But yeah, all the hard twerking dance moves and everything should come down to a hold and she should really start her own family. It's only far but the question is "Is This A Rumor , Or Is This True"?

And How Old Are You Again ?

I honestly feel that at a certain age, old people should have their licensed REVOKED! I mean, am I right? It should at least be a little more difficult to get a license for them and they should definitely have to get it renewed more often then the usual four years. Their eyes starts to wear off on them and they drive so damn slow. It would even make more sense to have someone even drive them around but seeing these grandmothers and fathers on the road so often and so slow is a hazard.

Reasons Senior Citizen Shouldn't Drive :

- Their relaxes aren't as heightened as they used to be years ago. - Drive to slow - Don't have enough patients to deal with other drivers. - Eyes start to fail them and things aren't as clear - THEY DON'T PAY ATTENTION

You might have your own opinion : But I'm just saying ..
... How Old Are You Again ?

Man or Woman ? ;Please Let Me Know

Some of the people these days be fooling you when it comes to genders. I was walking down the street this morning and there was a girl that I thought was a girl but then she looked up and I seen the huge atom's apple that proved she was a man. SMH, a lot of men are coming out the closet that you would never believe to be gay and it kind of makes you look at people with a different attitude.

Picture This: You see this attractive man. You know the usual, nice looking and well dressed with a pretty smile and your thinking to yourself that this man could be a good part to my future. Next thing you know a man comes from around the corner and grabs his hand and kisses him on the lips.

Oh yeah, it has happened on more then one occasion and woman these days are finding out that more and more of their men are becoming gay either within or after relationships. So the next time you wanna talk to a man or woman, try asking them if their gay/lesbian or ever been. You never know .. It might benefit you in the future.

To Live and Die In LA

Call me old fashion or anything else but I honestly think that gang's are STUPID. A former friend once told me "A gang is like a brotherhood and bond" but can't you go find a brotherhood and bond in something else. The need to fight over a color is completely stupid and the only thing they deal with is violence. "Dammmmnn cuh, you know such and such from 6-0 , well he fucked that nigga up from bloods .." It's all about fighting no matter which way you look at it. People that get involved with these things are not even stupid, they are some of the smartest people that just get themselves involved with the wrong people who believe that fighting is the source of everything. I know that that is not what it is all about and maybe if someone would give me a better understanding on it then it would be more clear to me but for now, I don't like it. I wish all the gang violence would come to an end. I'm sure it would save a lot of lives and the streets would be much more easier to live in.

Dreams Don't Always Have To Be HUGE ..

A lot of times people have these huge and unrealistic dreams that will never come true and they let themselves get caught up on them. An uncaught dream is all they're left and then their heart is all broke because for years they had this goal that never happened. Why don't people dream and start with things that they now they can accomplish. Like setting goals for themselves, realistic goals that they'll will be able to accomplish and be one step closer to what they want in life. Everyone wants to be a singer or rapper but what is the difference when that is what the world is all seemed of these days. Why people can't be business owners, and writers or something that we all need to see because honestly the life of writing and most common things that used to be major or slowly coming distinct. I hope to see the next generation going for things that not EVERYONE wants to be so that way they stand our more because these days, everything is getting less and less deprecated.

To The End Of The Road

Soooo , my cheerleading season is finally OVER -__- it's kind of a bittersweet kind of situation because for my first two years it was really great. We had so much good times and the connection that I had with my teammates was great. All the dancers were amazing and even though we had a lot of drama on the team, it never overrode the great times that we shared together. That's what I am pretty much gonna miss about it but then you have the rough side about it which was this year. Man oh man was this year super rough and fulled with all sort of unnecessary drama. From my coach throwing down stupid rules to everyone being lazy on the team and not wanting to do anything. Honestly, only thing I'll miss about this year was the people that made me laugh on a constant but other then that I am so glad that it is over! So when I tell you about being the captain of the cheerleading team, I will tell you it was a bittersweet situation but I wouldn't redo anything new because it taught me some new lessons on life. Now that my season is over I am going down the final stretch to my graduation and what am I gonna do now with all this free time that I have on my hands?

Head Over Heels ...

Okay so I'm one of the luckiest females on the planet. Like seriously, I am blessed with such an amazing boyfriend and life that I couldn't even let myself be selfish and ask for anything better, it's impossible. Anthony is by far the only person that knows me inside out. Isn't it so funny how you can look at someone and obviously see that there are certain things that bug you about him or her but can accept it in such a way that you love all the flaws. I can not honestly pin point one thing that bothers me about Anthony because even the things that get on my LAST nerve is the thing that makes me love him more. I can truly accept that he is not perfect and that is what makes him perfect for me because we fit each other so well. I wouldn't change anything about that man to make him more better because it's the person that he is today that makes me head over heels in love ..

In My Reflection .

Each day I look into the mirror and I remind myself of a new me. I have improved so much in the last seven months that even it amazes me. I am completely healed, no more emotional damage. I smile more often and find myself laughing and enjoying things that I know that I wouldn't usually enjoy. I used to be that scared timid little girl that was afraid to let her heart open and feel free but now that little girl is gone and a woman has appeared. One that is strong, knows exactly what she wants and is happy with the life that she lives. A weight has lifted off of my shoulders. I am not the girl that I used to be. I do not let the little things bother me because life is too short for that. Each moment spent frowning is 60 seconds off of my happiness that I could never get back. I've seen people die that pasted way before they needed too and didn't have the time to do everything in life that they dreamed of or wanted to do. I know that I will not be one of those people. I now live each moment like it's my last because life is precious and some people don't understand that. In my reflection is a completely different girl and man, she is BEAUTIFUL !