Senior Year .

On The Way To A Good Yeaar .
went to cheer camp and won best dancer for the third year ina row
and even won the spirit stick ... great way to start my senior year .

Like Toy Soldiers.

"I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure. Even though I hope the weight of the whole world on my shoulders. I am never supposed to show it, my crew aint supposed to know it. Even if it means going toe to toe with a Benzino it dont matter. I'd never drag them in battles that I can't handle unless I absolutely have to, I'm supposed to set an example. I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide em`. If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside em`". - Eminiem

some powerful words in that song and honestly I forgot how beautiful

that song was. by far the best one that he ever released to me .

Beauty Beyond It's Obvious.

It's like the feeling behind a song that you play on repeat because of the words or maybe the melody is more beautiful that you've ever heard , or the excitment and thrill after you've played your championship game and you finally experienced the feeling of victory. Beauty comes in so many shapes and forms rather its obvious state, its behind all the great things that make us feel the way we do or passionate behind something that we love. Its an adjective but can be used as an expession and much more of a feeling then looks .

Enlighten Your Soul .

The world would be such a better place if everyone worried about only bettering THEMSELVES instead of worrying about the next person and what they are doing to change this world and we as a people become better . If people for once worried about the way that they acted and not how the person next to them protreys themselve, if people for once worried about what they can do to make this world a better place but not being prejudice or talking about her or him and just focused on what they can do to bring peace to this world then the world would become a greater place, we would finally be able to become one . We as a people allow ourselves to judge eachother, put down eachother, not care for one another like we care for our own and it divides the world in to divisions . If we just stopped and looked at the world at a different angle, we would see that the world could be as amazing as you want it to be but all we have to do is worry about making that change within ourselves.

If only we looked at the world from a different prespective ..

Outsider ; Looking In .

"I should be crying but I just can't let it show. I should be hoping but I can't stop thinking ... All the things I should've said that I never said . All the things we should've done but we never did. Oh darling .. Make it go away . Just make it go away" - Maxwell .

It's been a tiring battle over the last year and I'm tired of fighting the war with my heart . It's amazing how a person could change your life completely . A few months ago if you asked me if I was happy or if I missed him . . I would have told you yess I'm happy and hell no I dont miss him with no hesitation but now that I seen what my happiness truly looks like my whole prespective has changed . Now I'm wanting, hoping, wishing but then its like that has always been my role sadly . I've always had to wait for what I truly wanted, especially now for something that I had .

I had a conversation with my sister today and she told me " If its meant to be then it will happen " but what if your tired of waiting . What if for once you just want it right then and there ? Guess that would defeat the whole purpose and apperication of it right ? But if you had something so special that you just can't seem to let go then why would you let it go ? There are so many questions , unanswered questions with my heart that I want to know but it seems like the answers that I'm seeking long with patience .. the patience that I was hoping that I wouldn't have to deal with but realized that I will need to get past these emotions and this battle within my heart .

So cnce again ... I'm the outsider looking in :(

The Impact .1958-2009 .

The Impact He Has Made ...

has touched people all over the world .

Michael Jackson ...
you will forever live in the hearts and the ears of people
all over the world . there was no one before you that did
what you have done and there will be no one after you that
will do what has been did .

"maybe now ... they will finally leave you alone".
- Marlon Jackson

My Recent Discovery .

I never stopped loving you ...

Traveled To See This .

Congratss To My Sister :)

she married the love of her life ..

Hypothetically, Ofcourse .

What if I told you,
that I had a confession .
I was in love with you,
the twelve months that when we were arguing .
You got a girlfriend
and she ended up pregnant
but you dont even know fahsure
if you baby's yours ....

What if I told you
we were meant to be together .
Future arrangements of happiness
and make it through all kinds of weather.

Is it cool for me to want all that back?
Is it cool for me to try to rekiddle our tracks
from the only man that I loved ?

or is it just too anomyous to keep it on the low ?

Purify Me .

because my words are my thoughts that should not

be heard to the public, for some of my feelings should

not be kept inside, for my mind is a powerful thing .

Purify Me .

Therefore I have room to grow and emotions to explore,

for my knowledge shall educate minds that need to learn

lessons unlearned, for reminders of intelligence .

Purify Me .

for I have done some things that Irefuse to regret,

for I have made some mistake in my time, for I will make

plenty more in the future inorder to grow strong .

Purify Me .

for I am human...

Photoshoot With Janay Ben-Simon .

In need of photoshoots or wanna see mre pictures ?
http://indifferent-being.blogspot.com/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/dcpphotos
http://www.myspace.com/soccer_baller23

Wondering Minds .

"The truth is everyone is going to hurt you . You
just have to decide whats worth the pain " .

I think if people learned to actually understand that statement
then hurt would be viewed in a different way . Pain is pain and
hurt is hurt . . . thats a part of life but if you can seperate the pain
and hurt that is nessacary from what can actually make you alot
stronger it wouldnt seem to bad right ?

Or How About This . . .

Everyone has or will get that FIRST love that is sometimes not
worth losing and sometimes relationship end that were never
intended on ending . Do you let it go for something else that could
possibly be better in the future or take whats yours at that very

moment or do you just leave it alone all together ? think about it .

Let Me Know What You Would Do ...

Missed Me ?

You DEFINITLY need the update on the events that
have been going on in my life . For starters I am currently
in the land that birth me , New York . Tigger [ remember ,
my first love of almost two years ] is back in my lifee , I've
become a senior as of June 18th and officially became 17
yrs young as of June 20th .

As of now I would like to say ...

Hello Summer 0h`nine .

Seems like my happiness couldnt possibly get any better

but then it always does especially since I'm back home . Boy

haave I missed new york and its still the same except minor

setbacks from when I grew up . Lately, my heart has been so

greatly especially after the talk with Tigger until the sun came

up , we established that we are Bestfriends for life ...

Summer oh nine will be beautiful and this is where life gets

to its PEAK for me . be prepared .. this young female is on persue .