I'm not the prettiest woman in the room. My body is not like those victoria secret models and I'm definitely not rich but I'm beautiful from the inside, my personality screams out with joy and my love for you takes up more then any amount of money ever will. All I ask from you is ... is that enough?

Back To Reality.

Seems like for the last three weeks I've been living in a dream. Honestly, it's been the greatest three weeks of my life but time to start the last and final stretch of school towards graduation and I'm not looking foward to it at all. I really don't wanna go back. Since winter break started, it feels like I had graduated already. I was actually liking it and getting used to it but theres no time for me to start slacking off and getting lazy. I've had these great grades for this long and I can't let them slip because I'm ready to leave my beautiful and wonderful highschool days behind. It's back to reality for tomorrow, six more months ... I can do this.

Sweet Dreams ...

Just about every night before I fall asleep, I think about all the times that we shared in our past and then I picture all the times that we will share in our future. I stare up at the top of my ceiling like a hopeless romantic and listen to the heartbeat of mine that sings your name so effortless and beautifully. I remind myself constantly how you are the perfect reflection of me and how much I thank god for being so generous that he would make someone as perfect and beautiful as you, just specially for me. There's this quote that goes "..you never know something is missing until it shows up.." and its right because I never knew what I was missing until you walked into my life. We've grown so close that I can not even begin to imagine life without you anymore because you've become apart of me. You are my inner strength, my happiness, my motavation, my smile, my touch, my sense, the air that I breathe and the food to my soul. I love you Anthony Jeremiah Cunningham Jr. with more then my heart can love, I love you with my soul and I hope tonight when I fall asleep.. I see your beautiful face. Sweet dreams baby.

There's Always Hope ...

In the mist of everything, when everything seems like it's going wrong .. I think the most important thing to remember is that "There's Always Hope ". All of the world people are hurting, dieing, rebirthing and etc but when everything else fails and all is taken from a person to where they think that nothing even matters anymore, there is always hope. It's the one thing that lives inside of you and can never ever die. Bring it out and the best of you will also be shown for the world to see. Life is only as bad as you let it be, remember that.

Monday, Please Don't Come.

Ugh. Even though my winter break went by at a decent time speed, I still can't believe monday is when we start back school. First semester went by pretty fast and I'm pretty excited for my last semester in high school but then again, I am so tired of getting up at 7:30 to go to school. I'm ready for prom and graduation to be here already. I've been doing amazing with keeping up my grades but I can honestly feel myself becoming lazy and not really wanting to do anything and I definitely don't want my grades to drop. I'm almost finished, just gotta hang in there alittle while longer until freedom. But the real reason is that my winter break has been the best one I've had yet and I'm just not ready for it to end yet.

Six More Months ..

that's when all the action seems like it's going to begin. I'll be turning eighteen years old and graduating from highschool but most importantly, all my family will be coming out to see me outta highschool. There's nothing as important to me like my family. Being all the way in california and everyone being so far away from eachother it's hard to keep intouch but they're the ones that will always have my back through thick in thin. Boy, how time flies. Six more months is when my adult life will start beginning and I'll step into the world as a woman. Six more months until my teenage years are over and six more months until I have the rest of my life to be grown. . .

The Man Of My Dreams

I've never met anyone as beautiful as the man that I'm lucky enough to call my boyfriend. Everything that I ever dream about lives inside him and I'm so happy to be able to call him mine. I've never was able to make a connection to anyone like I am with him and it feels so amazing to finally have a male figure in my life. Sometimes I ask myself how can a man be so beautiful and amazing? Then I look into his eyes and everything makes so much sense. I can see my life in his arms when I'm with him and it feels so right. I could never allow myself to ask for anything greater because no amount of angry or etc allows me to stay away from him too long. Four wonderful months as his girlfriend, I can't believe it because it seems like just the other day I was in middle school with him and thinking t0 myself "damn... he's fine" lol. Now that fine man, is all mine and it's beautiful. I've been in love before but being with anthony gives the word love a completely new meaning. We're so much in love that we are apart of eachother and there's nothing more lovelier then that.

".. and if only they could see.."

I am an amazing woman. If only some people could see that. Alot of the time people focus on alot of the negative things on a person instead of all the postive. Now a days people are so focused on everyone's fault that they don't even recognize all the good and amazement in that person. Everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect. The one problem with the popluation of people is that they think that they are not supposed to have problems. If everyone focused on themselves and how they could become greater as one then they wouldn't have time to judge.

Hello 2010.

It's been so long since I've actually wrote on here but I've made a promise to myself that I wouldn't forget about blogspot anymore but anyways, Happy New Years! I brought mine in pretty amazing I must say. My new years resolution is to stop biting my nails, laugh alot more then I cry and learn how to let things go. I'm pretty sure I can make that all happen. My life has been so furfilled with amazing stuff since the last few months that it's gonna be impossible to check you all up but I can try to give everyone a brief update. I'm officially with the love of my life, going on five months on the 23rd of this month =) go meee! my bestfriend jordan finally came back from hawaii and I currently have a 3.3 gpa in school, pretty amazing huh? Yeah I know. Life has been greater then it's ever been and it can only get better from here.